think about it calmly

I thought about him calmly.
For sure, he liked me like he told me.
That's it.
That means neither more than it nor less than it.
When I realized that,
I didn't become angry at him even if his mails are monosyllabic.
'cuz I am not his girlfriend.
I have a lot of things to ask and tell him.
but I can't.
'cuz I am not his girlfriend.

Then, why did you ask me 'why don't we keep in touch with each other?'?
why did you give me a birthday present which means 'he loves her'?
why did you whispered 'I love you'?
we don't see each other again, do we?
we are getting to forget each other, aren't we?

I might have been decieved.
but I want to believe he might have told me a truth.

after all,
I still need him
I still love him....